Let’s get this straight from the beginning, I almost forgot about this blog. I know, it’s a shame and I think too that it is not so responsable; starting something and then neglecting it.
The two main reasons why I quit for so long, is first because I went to university in fall, starting a bachelor’s degree in Law. I had my desk filled to the rooftop with study work and I didn’t really know how to handle it, so I tangled. I wasn’t myself anymore and the responsabilities, stress, deadlines, time calculation were practically all I thought about. To phrase it in one line: living with my head was dull and toxic…
Secondly, I was afraid. Afraid of throwing my privacy in the wide open world. Only two or three people know about this blog and to be honest, I was afraid about the comments I’d get from friends and family. Opening a blog is in my circle still seen as a typically cosmopolitan thing and, well, I’m not a New Yorker.
But I think I’m going to throw those reasons and doubts overboard and start doing what I love: writing, sharing art, books, photographs, poems, stand up for things I believe in, like gender equality and a more loving world. I’ve set my goal on investing in those things and just keep it real, too. I’ve been limited in expressing the creative part of me (due to uni) and it has brought me almost to my knees. I was so… dis-tached. I became apathic and was struck when I realised it myself. The floor disappeared from under my feet.
And, through all this time, I kept watching and reading vlogs and blogs by Estée Lalonde, Garance Doré, Alexandria Morgan etc, amazed and fascinated, thinking: ‘I want this too.’
So, I hope that all of you out there forgive me my absence. I am truly sorry.
As for blog posts, I’m not going to stick to a plan, since the to the rooftop filled study work hasn’t magically disappeared. But my aim is to post regularly (like once a week) about what’s been on my mind.
Lots of love,
PS: If you’d like to post a comment, please do so! I love reading other people’s thoughts and ideas!